hanging in there

So after physical therapy today, my therapist was advising me to find a new career. He took me out of work for the week so I can rest up. I told my boss all this and he has put me on medical leave of absence for the time being.

I was talking with Beth a lot about all this. For some reason after talking to her I just felt so much better.

Even though I feel like I'm going through this whole thing a second time, there is so much that can suck. Its just all about getting up in the morning, putting the past behind you and doing your best in that moment, in that day. Its a hard situation to be in.

I think this next week off is going to really put me in a good position. For the past week I've just been locking myself in a cave, watching movies. I'm excited to get away for a little bit, get out of the house, be productive....in a non physical sort of way.

I'm wondering if it makes more sense for me to just find another job, or stay with Best Buy.

I will not allow myself to get sucked into my own victimization.
I will not allow myself to feel abandoned.
I will not allow myself to wallow in misery.

This is not the end, nor is it the beginning, this is just another step, stop taking it like its the end of the world. You aren't that extreme person you used to be, act like yourself. You're not your friends, you're not your family, you're not your job.