a bit of change
So recently i have discovered that my work situation isn't going to pan out as well as originally anticipated. Miscommunication seems to have placed me again in the victim's seat and I had to cancel all of my summer plans, which were many. The plan was to hike the AT from mass to new hampshire for 2 weeks at the end of may/1st week in june, then leave for cali with Jon and family in july, get dropped off in Yosemite for a month then come back. By that time school would be starting and we would move in. There was a possibility for sailing in Canada or recon in India. But instead I have to find a new job. Next year the state no longer wants to pay for a PCA all together which is to both Jon and my misfortune. Its a little frustrating to think that things are finally starting to work out only to have the rug pulled out from under your feet....again.
Its easy to think God is in control when things are running smoothly.
No
no its not
Its hard to think God's in control regardless of how smoothly or spotty things are. Even when things are running good I find myself feeling bored and ready for change, when things are rough its like well what are you gonna do now? If its not one its the other. I'm worse than the Israelites traveling across the desert. God's been feeding me and taking care of me but at the slightest hint of too much or too little, its all over in my head.
Im fickle.
Im whining.
I hate it when that happens, maybe you can't hear it but I can hear it in my head, its that tone of voice that drives me up the wall.
Dont say I love you unless you mean it. It throws me off, I dont know you. You really dont know me. I'm in this situation because you've assumed too much. I love you is not a band aid, its not Tylenol...stop prescribing it. take 2 call me in the morning.
take 3
lets try it again.
Yes, I'll tell you what you want to hear if that will make you leave me alone. It still drives me up the wall. Smile. Flash. Done.
So much to learn
So impatient
where did you go? where did I go? Im not sure how I wound up here. Its kind of like amnesia.
should I pick from the hat, can we draw straws?
too crazy, be careful...that one bites.
Its easy to think God is in control when things are running smoothly.
No
no its not
Its hard to think God's in control regardless of how smoothly or spotty things are. Even when things are running good I find myself feeling bored and ready for change, when things are rough its like well what are you gonna do now? If its not one its the other. I'm worse than the Israelites traveling across the desert. God's been feeding me and taking care of me but at the slightest hint of too much or too little, its all over in my head.
Im fickle.
Im whining.
I hate it when that happens, maybe you can't hear it but I can hear it in my head, its that tone of voice that drives me up the wall.
Dont say I love you unless you mean it. It throws me off, I dont know you. You really dont know me. I'm in this situation because you've assumed too much. I love you is not a band aid, its not Tylenol...stop prescribing it. take 2 call me in the morning.
take 3
lets try it again.
Yes, I'll tell you what you want to hear if that will make you leave me alone. It still drives me up the wall. Smile. Flash. Done.
So much to learn
So impatient
where did you go? where did I go? Im not sure how I wound up here. Its kind of like amnesia.
should I pick from the hat, can we draw straws?
too crazy, be careful...that one bites.
posted by Its not about Perfection, Its about Progress at 10:43 PM
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